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Mi Amor by MrBda241 Mi Amor :iconmrbda241:MrBda241 18 11 Hair styles meme by happywell Hair styles meme :iconhappywell:happywell 5 4 STAMP: Genderfluid Pride by FlameExorcist STAMP: Genderfluid Pride :iconflameexorcist:FlameExorcist 195 51 New Style Jeff The Killer and Ben Drowned- LIKE? by LiizEsparza-Chan New Style Jeff The Killer and Ben Drowned- LIKE? :iconliizesparza-chan:LiizEsparza-Chan 1,349 206 BBR 32 Adorable by Xamag BBR 32 Adorable :iconxamag:Xamag 1,007 186 FtM crossplay tutorial by LiaDeBeaumont FtM crossplay tutorial :iconliadebeaumont:LiaDeBeaumont 730 191 My first FtM makeup tutorial. by Sock-Monkey-Renegade My first FtM makeup tutorial. :iconsock-monkey-renegade:Sock-Monkey-Renegade 524 147 Dis is mah boifriendo by Swim2theSun Dis is mah boifriendo :iconswim2thesun:Swim2theSun 7 8
Not Trans Enough
No, no I'm not alright.
I thought I was okay when I thought I got over them. I thought everything was fine when I thought I knew who I was, but then they come in and tell me who I am and who I'm supposed to be.
But low, I'm not even Trans* enough.
I'm not Trans* enough because I'm apprehensive about taking T.
I'm not Trans* enough because I'm not constantly ogling over girls.
I'm not Trans* enough because I like to wear dresses from time to time.
I'm not Trans* enough because I don't work out at the gym.
I'm not Trans* enough because I like to Sew and Bake.
I'm not Trans* enough because I didn't 'come out' when I was 3.
I'm not Trans* enough because I'm not out to most people I know.
I'm not Trans* enough because I don't pack (and don't really want to)
I'm not Trans* enough because I don't have 'bottom' dysphoria
I'm not Trans* enough because my name is gender neutral.  
I'm not Trans* enough because I've only ever had crushes on guys.
I'm not Trans* enough because public washrooms sca
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DA Stamp - Other Gender 01 by tppgraphics DA Stamp - Other Gender 01 :icontppgraphics:tppgraphics 502 0 FTM - I'm a BOY by wormbittenapple FTM - I'm a BOY :iconwormbittenapple:wormbittenapple 237 32 GBLT etc is still Human stamp by CatalystSpark GBLT etc is still Human stamp :iconcatalystspark:CatalystSpark 169 33
Trangendered? Be yourself.
I was told recently that I act like too much of a woman to be a man because I am one of the more sensitive and compassionate types of people. This was spoken by an acquaintance but it makes me think. If I had been born biologically male then they would not have said I was too much of a woman to be a man, but instead considered me a sensitive guy, something which is not a bad thing to be. This occurred due to me hugging my roommate and giving him a shoulder to cry on when he had a mental breakdown. Had someone born male done that it would have likely been seen as being a good friend, but in my case, because I was not born male in body, they use my caring as a way to try to prove I am not a man, when all evidence proves otherwise when it comes to my mentality.
It got me thinking. Yes, people hold expectations for how genders act, but those who are cisgendered, that is born in a body matching their mental gender, are allowed to bend and blur the lines without anyone questioning their gend
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How to Know if You're Trans
I see these questions sometimes, about "how can you be sure you're trans?" I see the sentiment often in articles that claim to "question" transsexuality, from well-meaning but pain-in-the-ass bystanders, and so on.  A lot of it gives me a migraine the size of a T-Rex behind my right eye, so I thought I might help clear up some of the confusion.
There is only one way to "know" you're trans.  And that's because you feel you are.  Does this answer seem vague to you?  It should, because it is.  As much as others would like to tell you otherwise, there is no "test" for being trans.  There is no criteria that if you check enough boxes, congratulations, you're transgendered.  I ID very strongly as trans, but I fail nearly every single criteria required for Aetna's insurance coverage of trans care.  In Aetna's eyes, I'm not a "true transsexual,"
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I used to wear dresses and play with dolls,
While wishing I was playing in the mud.
I used to go shopping and wear lots of pink,
While wondering what boxers would feel like.
Now I know what I am, I don't question for a second.
But everyone else,
What do they see?
I look like a boy through and through,
Everyone calls me a he at first.
Then I talk to them.
My voice is high.
They notice something is up.
And they apologize.
And I die a little inside.
"May I go to my locker?"
"Yes, ma'am, you may."
Can't you see that I'm a boy, are you blind?
My full name... What boy is named that?
Mother, why? Why label me this?
There's a boy, locked inside a girl's shell.
And he's lost.
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Someone's Reality 18 by LiraWM Someone's Reality 18 :iconlirawm:LiraWM 77 27


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I'm so sorry mom :'(

I don't know how to come out to you. I don't trust you. It ended in a catastrophe the last time I came out to you (indirectly). I normally do trust you with my problems, but I'm just not comfortable telling you. I'm so sorry.


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Shawna Rehel
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Hello. I am a amateur artist and I love to create new drawing styles. I love to sketch and doodle! Drawing is one of my favourite pastimes.


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LoveToTheCucumber Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave :iconbowplz: and I hope you've settled onto dA :D!
ShanaRiel Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
You're very welcome! :)